I've always found music to be a release for me. It's so soothing. I love to sing at the top of my lungs. I'm self-conscious about my singing so I rarely sing loudly in front of anyone but Steph. In the same way that music soothes me, it also speaks to me, sometimes in ways that plain words just don't. There have been several songs that I've heard since the boys were born that have really spoken to me. One you see below. It's called Praise You In This Storm by Casting Crowns. I heard this song for the first time while driving home from the hospital late one evening. Ironically, the rain was pouring down that night. I was reminded by this song that God doesn't promise to take all our pain away. He never claims that he will miraculously make everything perfect. What He does promise is that he will be with us through the storms. No matter how bad things get, no matter how alone we feel, God is always there.
That has been the hardest thing for me through this whole process. I want God to "fix" it. I so desperately want him to heal Nathan completely. And I so badly want the answer to my biggest question.....WHY?!? Unfortunately, I'm guaranteed none of these things. What I am guaranteed is that God will walk through this with Steph and I. That He will get us through the storm, regardless of the outcome.
That has been the hardest thing for me through this whole process. I want God to "fix" it. I so desperately want him to heal Nathan completely. And I so badly want the answer to my biggest question.....WHY?!? Unfortunately, I'm guaranteed none of these things. What I am guaranteed is that God will walk through this with Steph and I. That He will get us through the storm, regardless of the outcome.
"Praise You In This Storm" - Casting Crowns
I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
(Chorus)
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You
But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
(Chorus)
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth
9 comments:
Beautiful Kyle. That will hlep us all in this time to remember God's promise. Thank you for sharing and for allowing many of us to journey through this time with you and Stephanie.
I love this song. It is on my daily playlist. Thank you for being so real and honest. And we will continue to Praise Him in this storm!
That song is very comforting. We appreciate how you have been able to keep us updated on the boys. You all are in our prayers daily. Give Stephanie and the boys a hug for all of us. Love you all. Aunt Katheryn
I love that song too! Thanks for posting the words to it. You know that sooooo many folks are lifting you up in prayer and God will bless your family. We are certainly praying for you daily.
Love,
Eddy and Joetta Gallardo
Kyle, I went to one of their concerts while I lived in Houston. Mark Hall told the story of "I'll Praise you in this storm". I don't remember the exact story and I've tried to google it, but I haven't been able to find it. But, from what I remember, he was talking to a mother who had a sick child and told him she would continue to praise Him no matter what happened. This is where this song came from and I can't imagine how many people have felt this way and felt a relief from this song... What a great tool it has been! Thanks for your sharing and honesty! We're still praying!
I FOUND THE STORY on youtube!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yr7i5L6kFT0
I loved the part where he says "sometimes the Lord rides the storm with us..."So, true, he doesn't promise us it will be easy, but he promises he will be with us... :-) Love this!
Kyle & Steph,
As we have followed you on your journey with Jacen & Nathan, we have increasingly been touched by your faith, maturity and loving hearts. You have blossomed into such beautiful Christian parents, an example for us. One wish, if you feel comfortable with it, is that one day, after these storm clouds have parted and we enjoy the green grass and flowers they helped provide, you might also say: "I have dealt with great things that I do not understand; things too wonderful for me, which I cannot know."
May you always feel Jesus' loving arms surround you all.
Amen! Thanks for sharing your heart, Kyle. Still praying - Marcelia
Continuing to praise Him with you. Thanks for sharing your heart with us! In my prayers.
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